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I've lost that feeling.... You know when you go out with the camera hoping to take some pictures, stumble across some keepers but at the end of the day all you get are generic, bland and ones that you say to yourself "oh I've seen those before"?

Thats how it is for me right now, everything looks the same.

Everything has become too complicated, I go out to try and shoot and all I'm worried about is what my iso is at and what effect my aperture and focal length will give. I'm doing all that in my head plus checking if the camera is front/back focusing and do I have to take another shot (K5 is a great camera but for god sakes Pentax, get better QC in your factories! I fixed the K10 myself but i was hoping to buy one that works right out of the box 4 years later)

It's like the review I saw about the new McLaren MP4-12C. By all means its a fast car but in a very neat and clinical sort of way, a very technical endevour with no love or passion. Thats how I see my attempts at photography at the moment, technically good photos but seems to be missing a little something to make it pop. Losing the power to 'see' the situation if you know what I mean, that photographers eye...

So bored, nothing I want to shoot. Maybe its time to go back to my little A620 and clear my mind. Simplify and add lightness....
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and i cant believe that my one week break is over... Uni is abt to start again.

Corrected the back focus of my camera through a hacked firmware and its so much sharper now! :)
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This might be a bit late, but here comes another year...

Things in 2009 that i find shocking already:
- I'm going to be 20! Not a happy exclamation mark but one with uncertainty
- I'm going to a new uni course, might finally have the courage to take up Bachelor of Fine Arts (maybe)
- Cant believe how boring my life has these past few years though I do find comfort in knowing that I do not NEED anyone beside me nor do I NEED justification of my existance from anyone of my friends... Then are they really friends?

What i want to do this year:
- Get my arse off the chair and try for some actual photography jobs
- Make my job at Ted's a worth while one, right now not gaining much other than much needed $$ but that doesnt feel complete
- Be able to make choices clearly and decisively
- Get over the insecurities

Finally though...

GET MORE SHOTS UP ON DEVIANTART AND MORE PEOPLE VISITING THIS PAGE! BEEN HERE FOR 2 YEARS AND ONLY HAD A HANDFUL OF PAGE VIEWS, NEED TO FIND A BETTER WAY OF SHOWING MY ART TO PEOPLE! But i guess that cant be helped, everyone has different tastes, mines probably just a bit different to the crowds'...
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Not only this website but also in taking photos and art in general.

Feel so disconnected with it and myself as well.

I borrowed two books today, one on Henri Cartier Bresson and the other on modern day photography because i thought it will be good to catch up and refresh on some art theory and revisit some of the photos which inspired my love of street and candid photography. Oh how i miss just spending a day out in the city taking photos...

Now days its just work, uni, work, uni, work, uni etc. I cant say that I've grown into this repetitiveness because my art and my photography is always on the back of my mind but to be honest I've just been..... lazy. Or is tired the right word? Now comes the end of another year and for me to decide a 2nd time what I really want to do at uni. Keep the repetitive boredom which eventually might lead me to a more stable life or drop this boring piece of shit call business and just do what I really want to do?

Why is life full of sacrifices? I should visit here more and take some more photos again.... Need to re-learn my photoshop skills as well.
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